what did I do to deserve the affliction?

2012-03-15 09:47:13 UTC

I got the worst teast and torment in the history of mankind and I dont know what I did to deserve it. its not what I did do, its more of what I didnt do.

I know being 'teased' doesnt sound that problematic. however, there was girl who really liked me and she told me that she wanted a rock. we hung out several nights and I introduced her to a friend. The alleged friend eyed her down while she was sleeping on the couch as we were leaving one night and in hindsight banged the hell out of her the next night.

now I am left to suffer unimaginable persecution and affliction unto death. the reason why she ran off is because I never 'stepped up' and the devil was supposed to be my friend and when he stabbed me in the back and sent her an email it made him look cooler and better so she went and got herself ravaged. going forward, she appears to stop liking for a short time thereafter, no longer grabbing my hand, and begins bugging her eyes out at me like she didnt want to look in my eyes anymore, and one night shortly after she offered me a ride home, but didnt sound optimistic so I declined. of course they couldnt tell me. and she probably continues to suck that savage rat off when im fighting misperceptions around me going forward and unto death.

I recall one night she sat next to the devil all 'dolled up,' in hindsight ready to suck him off, but he never says a word, ever. going forward, she comes over and sits on the desk and asks me if she should go with her brother. she stares into my eyes on several occasions thereafter. she sucks on her finger making a popping sound and her brother asked her what it was. she puts her hands on her neck under her head and kicks her legs out towards me sometime after her re-engagement. she shares her food with me which is unsual for a hyena. they bear false witness and leave me trembling in a combination of the worst tease and torment fathomably possible

I was told she never even talked to the devil, but in hindsight, I know he was banging her everytime I turned my back. emailing her, texting her and having sex with her, but never had anything to say and when we would hang out together she was always my "queen" as her brother called. she told me that I was "cooler than ever" twice after her re-engagement to a different male. I had told I am cursed by Satan and that is not a goddamn joke period